No, I’m not talking about how heavy my study is. I’m talking about the Office of the Holy Ministry. I am really feeling its weight lately, more so than I have in all (count ’em) 6 1/2 years in the Ministry. It is the weight of knowing that I will be held accountable for the souls entrusted to me, and the realization that there are a good many that need to have the binding key applied to them individually, and this I am not relishing, nor should any minister of the Word. The words of Ezekiel frequently come to mind:
“Son of man, I have made you a watchman for the house of Israel. Whenever you hear a word from my mouth, you shall give them warning from me. If I say to the wicked, ‘You shall surely die,’ and you give him no warning, nor speak to warn the wicked from his wicked way, in order to save his life, that wicked person shall die for his iniquity, but his blood I will require at your hand. But if you warn the wicked, and he does not turn from his wickedness, or from his wicked way, he shall die for his iniquity, but you will have delivered your soul. Again, if a righteous person turns from his righteousness and commits injustice, and I lay a stumbling block before him, he shall die. Because you have not warned him, he shall die for his sin, and his righteous deeds that he has done shall not be remembered, but his blood I will require at your hand. But if you warn the righteous person not to sin, and he does not sin, he shall surely live, because he took warning, and you will have delivered your soul.”
There is a reason that James cautions against becoming Teachers, since they will receive a “harsher judgment.” What in the world was I thinking??